What is next in 2019, page-24

Absolute read and feels so relevant to TNG

How I cheated myself out of $17m on the sharemarket

In 2003, I held 250,000 Oil Search at 60c. Sold them at 70c, they later hit $9.83. That's $2.5 million missed. I also once held 50,000 Zinifex at $2. Sold them at $2.40. They hit $21.60. That's another million. Then there was the tech boom. That involved selling 200,000 Davnet at 40c, they went to $6; and selling 300,000 Voicenet at 38c that later hit $3.80. Add them up and that's another $2.35 million missed. These are just some of the ones that got away from me. No doubt you have your own story.

The worst thing about all the above trades, is that all I had to do to make $5.85 million was to do absolutely nothing at all. Instead I fiddled my way out of it. An activity that any commission-driven broker is paid to do, creating activity for activity's sake, for a commission, when the best course of action was to simply invest, not tinker.

But forget the $5.85 million, my best stock market opportunity came when I was working at Barton Capital and we got a visit from the investor relations guy of some crappy resources stock. It was February 2004. He was a friend, used to work with him at ABN AMRO, so when he asked if he could come in and sell his wares to the broking desk I made an exception and said "Yes".

Days later the traders were all over it, the volume was rising, the price had ripped up from 1.2c to 3.3c and on momentum alone I had personally bought a million shares at 1.6c. Now I'm no fool and as any stockbroker will tell you, when you find yourself standing at the desk punching the air in delight it can only mean one thing, "Sell!" So I did. It was a holiday in Bali for goodness sake.

Now what was that crappy little resources stock called again? Oh yes. That was it. Paladin. I once held a million Paladin at 1.6c. They went to $10.80. That's another $10.8 million left on the table.There used to be a bit of a stockbroker thing that you needed $5 million to retire. Win a million on Tatts Lotto and it doesn't actually change things. You need more. A million isn't a million to a retiree, it represents around $50,000 a year of risk-free income, so you need more. But $5 million? Paladin would have delivered twice as much. I had only risked $16,000 that I didn't need – not needing it being the most essential element of long-term patient investment – and all I had had to do was absolutely nothing.They say it's better to regret the things you've done rather than the things you haven't and I assume they're right. You only get one shot. To have had your chance at transformation, even if you didn't know it, is a thrilling part of "playing" the stockmarket, realising that you were once in the box seat is an everlasting reminder that at any moment you could be again and what better challenge could there be than knowing that right now, at this very moment, in the pages of the internet, the next Paladin is right in front of you, if only you could see it.So while a compliance-hamstrung advice industry is forced to deliver a monotone sermon about average returns, diversification, spreading risk, safe income, portfolio optimisation, capital protection, asset allocation, expected returns, efficient markets, rational markets, normal distributions, variance, standard deviation, correlated asset classes and all that other mother jazz, let's spare a moment for that little bit in all of us, in the advisers as well, that doesn't want a normal distribution, that doesn't want the average, doesn't want expected returns and doesn't want one standard deviation from the norm.All of us, whether we are allowed to express it or not, are always in the stockmarket in the hope that today could be the day we snag the stock that will return the most unexpected, abnormal, massive return in our lives that will make a difference to the rest of our lives.What we all quietly want is the next Paladin, the transformation, the glory of what is possible, and barring the luck of the casino, the lottery, being born rich or marrying rich and outside of building our own business, the stockmarket is the one place that it is on offer to the intellectual. It remains the most fascinating financial pursuit of all, and let's face it, if the last organ to pack it in is the brain, most of us will be doing it long after the other fires have burnt out.Marcus Padley is a director of MTIS Pty Ltd and the author of the daily stock market newsletter Marcus Today. For a free trial of the Marcus Today newsletter please go to marcustoday.com.au.