thanks mate for such kind words... I wouldn't have posted this...

thanks mate for such kind words... I wouldn't have posted this on an open forum as this is too personal... but what use is a forum if we cannot sometimes speak our mind... it helps a lot... i felt so good after posting... a load of my mind... i wanted to delete the post after hitting the POST MESSAGE button the time to edit it had elapsed... and I need a miracle now, so what better place to look out for a miracle than a drill site looking out for the next Ni find...